Mr Sheen shines umpteen things clean!

Sometimes, when i get upset, i clean.

I know, this sems to be a little... Wierd, but when i'm done, i can look at it, and say "Yup. I'm not worthless. I just did something, even if it was as petty as cleaning the kitchen, and it mattered. It helped." You see, i like to help, and not just in the way of cleaning. I like to be a comfort to people, i like to speak kind words, and do the right thing.

Tonight, i failed miserably at that. I opened my big fat mouth, and let my idiocy out. I say the wrong thing repeatedly, do the wrong thing, offend people i love, and then i clean. Or i get drunk.

Either way, maybe i need to have a bad week, and then the house would be spotless.

I suppose this explains my mother a lot. She cleans constantly. Maybe shes more afraid of offending the people she loves more than i am.

MAybe i should be pissed all the time, and then have my mouth stapled shut.

Or maybe i should see this as a lesson, and act accordingly.

God only knows.

But fuck him.